If love is contagious,

its pulling me in.

-- Right back in the water, Jesse M

Feeling at rock bottom now.

My swollen right eye is very terrible.

In other words, I look fucking abnormal.

No one seems to bother,

and the swell is affecting me very badly.

Self esteem and confidence is dipping every moment.

I fear to look into the darn mirror. I'm afraid.

I dont know how I'm going to face people now with the swell.

Today when I went for English tuition at Katong,

I had to wear shades throughout. In the bus & in class.

And the twin of mine, could actually tell me that I dont look nice.

Making me feel worse. What the fuck.

No words of encouragement, and this is what I get.

Why is this fucking thing happening to me. Life is indeed very unfair.

I'm so determined not to attend school until my eye is back to normal.

But I really dont wanna miss lessons.

I've no idea what I should do.

All I want at this split second, is for my eye to be back to normal.

Every movement of my eye is hurting me.

Be it just a slight touch or blinking. Even closing my eye hurts like fucking shit.

The pain is fucking killing me.

Tears wanna flow and I'm at loss.

I'll pamper my eyes after O levels,

let them be absolutely fine now, please.

Jehovah, I put my trust and faith in you, I hope you'll heal it for me tonight.

Thank you.

Ignore this fucking post if you want.

Goodbye.